I think of
I checked Tough Guys
Don’t Dance
out of the library. It’s in Potboilers.
Rented the movie. I also checked out
The Spooky Art. Norman Mailer on writing.
Sexual Dreams of an Everyday Househusband.
That’s a chapbook Roger Jackson published.
Mothers I’d like to fuck (MILF).
I keep threatening to trade Brenda in on
a 50-year-old woman, but she scoffs.
What 50-year-old woman would have me?
What will I do if a fellow fellow, a fellow
colonist, tries to seduce me? What if she’s
a man? Larry Rivers turned gay in his old age
because his possibilities were limited.
So did John Cheever. Cross the bridge
when it collapses. I haven’t won
the fellowship yet and already I am imagining.
Dreading. Just dread one day at a time.
Drood. Dan Simmons called a book Drood.
I called the lead character in Writing Sample
Hardhat Snood. Am I crazy? Is that nuts?
Are you balmy? Are you daft?
I don’t know. How would I know
if I was? I might just be imagining it.