Hemingway hung out with drunks.
There must have been some reformed drunks
in his circle, some members of AA. They would
see through his self-deceptive bullshit. His
rationalizations. John Barleycorn doing his thinking
for him. Where were they? Did he avoid them
like the plague? If so, that's a shame.
One of them could have spoken his language.
Maybe he was too far gone with mental illness
and trauma to the brain. Somatic brain damage.
Maybe he was beyond help by that time.
Pride goeth before a fall. He had a big ego.
Also, he was shy, and overcompensated.
Sensitive. That means he had to be coarse.
He could not appear to be androgynous.
His feminine side had to be suppressed.
Me, I want my mama.
Help. I'm dying here.